Being single

This is totally not a topic people talk out in the open. Its definitely something that everyone is aware of but simply refuse to discuss. My brother told me that day when I met him “You should get a boyfriend now. Or you never ever will” Mama never said anything about it, at least not in front of me. Funny how I used to think she’s all cool about this kind of stuff, until he mentioned how mama sometimes unleash her deepest worries about me showing no signs of ending my singlehood, I realized she’s just like any other mums out there. *sigh*

Sad but true, It’s not just mama who are laden with such thoughts. In fact, I toyed with the same thought myself. And I know I’m not alone in this. I am sure if not always, these thoughts might have crossed the fiery mind of us single ladies at least once.

But not actually quite like that. As life puts it, I love my life the way it is. I love being single. I love going out and not having to inform anyone beforehand. I love hanging out with my girlfriends. I love not having someone telling me not to do this and that just because he doesn’t want me doing so. Plus, I do still have tonnes of things to do before settling down. I want to go places, do things. Things that I’m not sure I’ll be able to do when I’m attached. (I tried to commit to few relationships before, but belum jodoh kot….too complicated.)

So does that make singleton my all time favorite brand?

The answer is no. Because despite all that, deep inside, I do wish to settle down one day. And yess, I do want to go home to that one person, who'd share his laughes with me, who'd shed my tears whenever i cry. To share my laundry basket with that same person, to cook dishes for two instead of one, to have someone to argue about whether to watch football or sappy movies for the night, etc..etc.. To know that there is one person who’d take me in no matter what.

Yess..one day.

Somehow I believe that one fine day I’ll wake up in the morning and find that I’m all ready, and by the time there’s this perfect guy who will come and knock me upside down and wallaah..! Everything fall into place perfectly. yeah..yeah..I know it sounded too fairy tale-like, a little too ideal to wish in this non-ideal world. But hadn't He said Himself,

So that’s not too much to ask for, isn’t it?

Depressed

Whenever I read my post kat bawah tu, I thought to myself – ghee.. I sounded so depressed.

But really. I had to admit. These last few weeks mmg have been really testing. Testing kesabaran, testing ketahanan diri.. Mcm2 berlaku.. Whenever I thought things could never be worse, something else went wrong. And this went on…one thing after another. And what did I do amidst all that?

- I whined. I complained. I wallowed. I walked around as if mine is the biggest problem in the world and no one would ever understand.

And good did I achieve by doing all that?

- None. After I whine, I felt like whining some more. I complained –why does bad things always happen to me? And afterwards, I felt more depressed. I slept during the day, went to bed early at night, woke up late in the morning. Everything I need to do, went into my pending list. During the day, I walked around with the ‘ignore me-I had a bad day’ attitude. I put up frowned face all day long, and spread guilt around to my friends for not having the same problem– And made them all feel bad as a result.

And did my problems resolve?

- Hah! Definitely not! In fact, I felt worse myself. And that’s when I realized- oh God, what have I done? I should have buckle up and move forward. Problems don’t go by itself. They need to be tended. What I need to do was stay around and get my problems sorted – and after that only I realized that actually, things were not so bad after all..It was the mind game that made everything looked worse than it actually was.. and it was also the mind that could actually made all the hard things in life easy. And the most important thing that I had actually forgotten to do was.. to count my blessings. Even when most things in life had went into the drain, even when all things important seem to be lost – I still have a lot of other things with me. Its not the end of the world. Its not like I couldn’t get up and fix things up.
I just forgot to be grateful.

"True greatness is, start where you are, use what you have, and do what you can."

*sigh*

Its My Life

I want, what I want, When I want It.

Well, that's life. That's how I want to maneuver my life, right now.

Regardless of me being selfish or not, that is.

Who cares? Even if I care, will other people take the trouble to care as much as I do?

No. Nope. None.

So, I want to live my life as it is, judge me all you want. Like I care?

There's nothing to think about pun. So I don't want to be in a shitty mood right now, why make it worse, kan?!

Old ITM's friends

Last weekend, we had a gathering at Tarbush, Ampang Point.

It was really FUN meeting all my friends again after more than 10 years apart. Bak kata Kak Nai & DE....IT WAS A BLAST....Here are the pics taken on that day.

Nyanya propose to have an outing every two months. Keluar makan cam hari tu....to share stories, gelak sampai giler, dgr jokes bangang Ayu and so much more....

Kalau setuju, Nyanya can organize kan cam hari tu, but let to let her know when & where.

The promoted group 1994 ITM Jengka

Ex- roomates

K. Nai, Nyanya, Yati, DE & Ayu
K. Nai & Zeah

Legend Island

12 November 2007 (Isnin)
- Ambil bas from KL Sentral to LCCT cost RM8.00. Hujan plak pagi ni. Sampai LCCT, Girl and the others semua dah sampai. Terus checkin. Our flight is 10.20am. As usual, the flight is delay again, we depart 11.00am. Haaiihhh….kena gelar Air Delay..bukan AirAsia.

- Sampai Langkawi 12.00pm. Terus checkin kat chalet. We stay at Lagenda Permai Chalet – RM60 per night. Cheap right? Area Pantai Chenang. Keadaan chalet ni ok…not bad. Lagi pun bukan nak stay dlm bilik pun. Lepas solat cari makanla…perut masing-masing dah lapar. We had our lunch at Tomato Restaurant. Just walking distance from our chalet. The price is affordable macam kat KL jugakla not much different. Lepas tu, kami cari tempat nak sewa kereta. We rent 2 cars, 1 Myvi and 1 Iswara – RM60 per day.. Cheap also…eemm…boleh recommend kat kawan-kawan nih. As usual, me as the driver. Ntah naperla depa suka suruh I jadi driver… L. Takperla…I drive Myvi, bawa family Girl. The other car Nizam (Adik Girl) yg drive..dlm kereta tu semua orang-orang muda..ceehhh!! Dlm Myvi warga EMAS!! Redha ajerla.

- Bila dah selesai hal sewa menyewa nih, 1st destination is tempat Beras Terbakar. Not much to say here…beras2 tu pun dah tak berapa nak ada. Tinggal sikit aje..tu pun terletak dalam kotak khas kat kawasan situ jugak. Ramai orang duk ambil beras tu, smpi habis!! Kat situ ada juga kedai jual2 mcm pakaian, kain batik, minyak gamat etc..etc..etc.. situ murah2.

- Next, we went to Telaga 7. Kononnya nak panjatla sampai atas. Tapi tak sanggupla sebab terlalu tinggi and tak larat nak panjat tangga hingga ke atas. We just make it hingga ke waterfalls aje. Situ pun dah cantik viewnya. Tak ramai pun orang yang mandi kat situ. Yelah..mana nak ada, sbb kami pegi sana on weekdays, bukannya on weekend or school holidays, or public holiday. Rehat about ½hr kat sana. Next, we went to Gunung MatChincang. Famous place for CableCar. Nak naik cable car tu cost RM15.00..kena tunjuk I/C baru boleh dpt harga tu…if not is RM25.00. Macam nak naik Genting Highland jugakla…keadaannya. Bila kat atas tu memang berkabus!!! Ala-ala overseas gituuu… tapi takla sejuk…rasa macam biasa ajer. Nice view, boleh nampak island-island..kalau tak berkabusla…berkabus kalu…mmg putih aje semua.

- Habis kat atas tu, balik chalet. Tukar baju, mandi kat beach pantai chenang plak. Air laut kat situ punyala masin…uweeekkk….tak sanggup lama2 dlm tu. Pedih mata, gatal2 muka dibuatnya.

- Lepas solat Maghrib, we went to Kuah. Had dinner at 1 of the shop kat situ. Lepas tu jalan-jalan, pusing-pusing lepak kat Dataran Helang. Lama jugak kat sana…smpi pukul 11pm. Kami smpi sana pun dah pukul 10lebih, nak cari tempat tu, cari parking lagi, berjalan lagi, sembang2 lagi…mana tak lama. Finish 1 day punya event.

13 November 2007 (Selasa)
- Plan for today is island hopping. Murah aje…is only RM25.00 per person..and it’s a half day trip. 1 boat boleh muat 16 orang. Best naik speed boat tu…lajuuuu!! Tak boleh mabukla kalau laju macam tu. 1st stop is at Pulau Beras Basah for 1 ½ hr…nice beach. Keadaan pantai tu cantik…crystal clear water, boleh nampak ikan-ikan from the jetty…boleh snorkeling jugak…tp tak cukup equipment. Kami mandi kat tepi-tepi pantai aje.

- Lepas tu, tour to Helang Island. Kat situ tak turun dari boat sebab kami kat situ cuma boleh tengok burung-burung Helang. Banyak burung2 Helang kat situ, to see how it’s fly and catch a fish…really…really cooollll!!! (See the pics below)

- Next we went to Pulau Dayang Bunting. On the way tu, from the boat memang boleh tengok bentuk Pulau Dayang Bunting tu…ada shape pregnant lady (See the pics below). We only allow to be there for 1 hour. From the jetty we need to walk up to the lake Dayang Bunting. Took us about 15 minutes. Tak larat sungguh nak panjat bukit…turun bukit..kejang kaki dibuatnya. Finally sampai jugakla. Take a boat rite..1 hr kena bayar RM30..okla..bayarla..I naik dgn Girl & Jamal. Tour keliling lake tu. Sunyi aje lake tu….dikelilingi oleh pulau. Tak lama pun naik boat tu…then terjun pulak kat lake. Tak berani lama-lama dlm tu sbb 30 meter dlmnya lake tu. Eventhough pakai life jacket still don’t feel secure sebab I & Girl tak reti nak berenang. Nasib Jamal tak swim, he just wait for us then tarik kami naik…sbb rasa lain macam aje dalam lake tu. Girl sampai rasa nak menangis. Well, it’s an experience.

- Complete dah island hopping. We really have a great time. Sampai chalet at about 2pm. Byk lagi tempat nak pegi visit ni.

- Next, we went to Makam Mahsuri. Banyak dah berubah tempat tu…dah upgrade. Nak masuk kat situ is RM5.00. We all kat dalam tu about 1 hr. Posing kat Makam, kat Telaga Mahsuri, kat Perkampungan Melayu dlm tu. I actually dah tak larat nak jalan….byk duduk dr berjalan…sebab betis I sakit and sometime cramp. Tapi tak tunjukla…maintain mcm biasa. Nasibla drive Myvi auto. Manual kalu….alamatnya tak berjalanla. Sebab other drivers tak expert manual car. Haaiihhh

- Next to Galeria Perdana. Dalam tu semua disimpan barang-barang collections Tun Mahathir. Nak masuk situ kena bayar RM10.00 I and Nizam tak masuk. After drop the others at the Galeria…I & Nizam pergi kedai across the road lepak kat situ. Lega rasanya dpt rehat kat situ. I memang dah tak larat nak jalan sakit sgt betis ni. Lama jugakla depa kat dalam galeria tu. Then we went back to the chalet…rest smpi mlm.

- Had dinner at Restaurant Rasa just walking distance from our chalet. Nice place….we had seafood. Nizam belanja that nite. Lepas tu we take walk at Pantai Chenang..smpi late a nite.

14 November 2007 (Rabu)
- We had breakfast at The Loft Langkawi at Kok Harbour. Tempat situ terletak semua kapal2 mewah. (See the pics below)

- Lepas breakfast we heading to Kuah. Shopping time!!! As for me, there’s nothing to buy…only chocolates. 2 hours we were there. Mak Girl yg shopping banyak sungguh…sampai kena beli extra begla dibuatnya.

- After shopping we went to Underwater World. Nak masuk situ kena bayar RM28.00. Over 4000 animals and sea creatures representing more than 500 species..Awarded “The Largest Aquaria” in Malaysia by The Malaysia Book of Records.

- By 2.30 we all packed and checkout. Had lunch then we proceed to the airport. Our flight is 5.30pm. As usual delay again. ETD at 6.10pm. Haiihh….sabor ajerlah. Hujan lebat. Macam tahu-tahu aje cuaca ni yg kami kesana nak bercuti….cuaca sungguhla elok…panas selama kami kat sana. Alhamdulillah…kalau hujan, tak dapatla nak buat all the xtvts semua nih.

- Sampai KL at 7.10pm. Kamal fetch me at the airport, dia dah tunggu kat arrival hall. Girl and her family/friends balik dgn Limo.

It was a great vacations. Hope to go there again…insyaAllah.

Theses are the pictures taken while i'm there :)

Other great sceneries :)

Shampoo

My usual hairdresser closed her shop. I had to go to the neighboring shady looking shop. I didn't need a haircut; I just wanted to get my hair shampooed. It wasn't like takde air kat rumah, but I just love the feeling of someone else shampooing my hair, not in erotic kinda way. Plus, it has been a very stressful day. I just want to sit on the chair, read magazines that I would never want to get caught buying like Mangga and let the shampoo girl lather up bubbles, and oh urut2 my kepala sikit.

Anyways, back to the story just now, I seriously didn't want to strike any conversation with anybody in the salon including the shampoo girl (Indonesian). I was planning to open my mouth just to say cuci & blow dry, berapa and thank you. But, no. the shampoo girl had to be a chatty girl. Very chatty girl. She started by asking where do I work, what do I do, am I married, am I seeing anybody, panas kan kak weather sekarang, siti nurhaliza and other shit (Banyak tanya plak minah indon ni). Her demeanor reminded me of Queen Latifah's character in The Salon. You know, the one where she owns a salon and the salon has become a mini CNN on its own, everybody brings in their own 'intelligence' and will compare notes and stuff. The place where you first heard that the fella who lives two doors from you actually keeps a mistress heheh. You get what I mean.

You see at my usual hairdresser, the shampoo girl always know that I never want to strike any conversation with anybody in the salon. Yes, contrary to popular belief, I know how to keep my mouth shut at times. Bukan sombong, but I just want to unwind.

So back to the chatty shampoo girl. She didn't seem to get the point!! eventhough I answered her questions curtly and sometimes even tak jawab langsung. I swear to myself that I will never step foot into that place anymore! Suddenly the chatty shampoo girls asked me:

"Akak nak urut?"

"Urut?"

"Iye lah, urut bahu apa semua"

"Err..ok"

She started to massage my shoulders, neck and my back. OMG! Super best ok! Ok la not orgasmic best, but not that bad at all. She continued doing so for the next ten minutes. I rasa sangat refreshed by then. She ended the urut by tepuk-tepuk on my back..

Pap pap pap pap!

Pergh!! Best giller! (Sakit gakla….sbb dia tepuk tulang..heh..heh..hhe..but still in a polite way)

Apparently she wasn't only a shampoo girl; she is also the masseuse and the stylist all in one. Takde service macam ni at my usual salon.

The bill came up to RM14. RM 14 ok!!!! Murah giller compared to the service rendered.

"Terima kasih ye"

"Sama-sama, kak. Datang lagi."

"Ok. Sorry eh tadi tak borak sangat. Akak penat la keje"

"Eh, takpe. Terima kasih ye kak!"

I rasa bersalah dan keji pulak for acting cold towards her hehehe. So, what's your Shampoo experience?

mom, this is why i'm not married yet

1.The nice men are ugly.

2. The handsome men are not nice.

3. The handsome and nice men are gay.

4. The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.

5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.

6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think we are only after their money.

7. The handsome men without money are after our money.

8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don't think we are beautiful enough.

9. The men who think we are beautiful, that are heterosexual,somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.

10.The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God are heterosexual, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRST MOVE!!!!

11. The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.

NOW ... .WHO REALLY UNDERSTANDS MEN?

Men are like a fine wine. They all start out like grapes, and it's a woman's job to stomp on them and keep them in the dark until they mature into something you'd like to have dinner with.