Sometimes

Hye everybody.. tak plan nak update, but I’m updating it anyway.. :-)

Few weeks back I got into an argument ;( I mean it was a cyber argument… it was something personal but what I’m trying to say is that sometimes, when you think you already knew a lot or too well, you may not be able to realize that you actually knew nothing at all… [am I making sense here? ;p] and that is because, you’re trying too hard to do things perfectly. [now make sense..] and maybe, being perfect may not be the best thing… and that is why, i'm still thinking...

I used to dream to find a perfect guy, and I thought I found one not so long ago. He's everything I want, or so I thought. In the end, he's not as perfect as I thought he was.

After we broke up, i still continue to find my perfect guy....until recently, when I decided my 'perfect guy' didnt exist at all....:-(

I know that not because I'm tired of looking, but one very fine day, I accidently look upon myself in the mirror like I'm looking at most guys I've seen, suprised suprised, I'm not even perfect myself.... im not going to be that 'lady' who throw out advices without being ask, but honestly, a perfect guy or lady only exist in dreams, thats why my goal now is to find an 'almost' perfect guy...:)

What do you think?? Do i have a point here..

Balik kampung

17 February 2007 (Sabtu)

Finally the time has come!!! Too happy smpi tak boleh nak tido. Macamla tak pernah balik kampung. Tapi kali ni lain sikit sbb I bawa kawan-kawan balik kampung I. They’re Intan, Oya and Ziez.

7.45am
Ziez smpi rumah I lepas dia fetch Intan & Oya. Ziez simpan kereta dia kat rumah I, then we all go with my Cabai.

8.15am
Depart from Maluri Hill Garden. The traffic approaching to Sg Buluh toll was OK. Dah happy dah sebab ingat semua orang dah balik kampong lastnite. Masuk aje exit Sg Buloh dah crawling!!! OMG!!! Entahla for how long nak kena stranded kat sini. Kereta punyala banyak ni baru betul nak balik kampung. Yelah…ingatkan bangsa cina ajela yg nak sambut CNY, bangsa lain pun nak jugakla grap this opportunity balik kampong ke, cuti2 malaysia ke, yelaaahh…4 harila katakan...lama tuuu. My entertainer is my friendsla. Depala yg dok melayan

10.15am
Still here, crawling I mean. Baru smpi Rawang. Can u just imagine 2hrs!!! Baru smpi Rawang. To me kalau 2 hrs tu, dah boleh smpi Ipoh!! Haaiiihhh….penatnya, nasib Cabai I tu auto. Kalau manual mau I tinggal aje keta tu and jalan kaki. Sigghhh!!!! Intan bagitau yg pagi tadi dia dengar kat radio ada 2 bas express tebalik dekat Lembah Beringin. When we reach there tak nampak pun bas2 yg accident tu….gamaknya dah kena tow kot. Tp, ada jugakla beberapa ambulance pass by us. Nasibla tak panas, hujan along the way.

11.30am
We reach Slim River. I nak pergi toilet, coz my tank dah full. Nak stop kat R & R pun tak boleh sbb semua tempat tu dah penuh dgn manusia. Kena drive to the next R & R, pun sama jugak, so I told my friends, can’t wait any longer mesti pegi jugak…kalau tak pegi, tak smpila kita kat Alor Setar nih. Still raining, tapi takla lebat bolehla tahan. Umat manusia yg beratur nak ke bilik air pun ramai jugak!!! Addussss…..sakit jiwa mcm ni. Tp dah natures call…beratur ajela.

12.05pm
Reach Tapah. Before we reach Tapah, we saw Police helicopter. They’re monitoring the PLUS highway from the sky. They flew very low & near…mmg boleh nampak depan mata. Lagaknya macam nak land atas highway. Mungkin they try to block emergency lane. Sebab kat emergency lane tu, byk kereta guna jalan tu. Yelaahh…nak buat macamana sbb too many cars, and that’s the only way they can used nak elak jammed. Oya managed to take video. It was a scary moment, I’m scared if the heli lost control, It might crash on us. Really HORROR!!

1.30pm
Baru sampai toll Jelapang. Nasib ada Touch & Go….takla long Q. Tapi ada jugak MALAUN yg tak reti bahasa & tak sekolah nak potong Q, then try nak masuk depan my car. Mentang2 dia bawa keta besaq Hilux…heeemmm!!! I don’t care, I don’t gave a damn way…lantakla…hang nak honk ke…nak maki ke….peduli apa I, kita dah beratuq elok2, dia plak pandai2…nak senang2 nak potong Q…sorry hozey, wrong personla nak masuk depan. Tunang Ziez dah susah hati dah, dia call a few times jugakla nak tau our status dah smpi mana….sbb kami ni lambat sgt sampainya, suppose dah boleh smpi penang dah boleh makan nasi kandaq pun. Tp I tak makan nasi kandaq

3.15pm
Sampai Juru toll. Tunang Ziez dah tunggu kat MdD Auto-City Juru. Tula 1st time I sampai sana eventhough dah selalu lalu nak balik Alor Setar. Happening gak tempat tu….byk kedai makan kat sana. We had lunch at Nando’s favourite Oya. J Lepak sana until 4.30pm. Kena rehat lama sket…sbb driver too tired. Sepanjang jalan from Sg Buloh to Juru was raining. Tu yg tak boleh nak speed sangat sbb jalan licin..lagi pun I bawa 3 orang anak dara

4.45pm
Depart from Juru. Slow drive to Alor Setar…it was raining heavily. Kesian kat Intan sbb tak dpt nak tengok bendang along the way. Sbb sekarang ni bukan musim menanam (which is hijau) or musim padi masak (which is kuning). Padi semua dah masak, so nampak byk bendang yg dah terbakar…for next menanam. Pemandangan tu tak berapa nak cuunlaaa…. L We reach Alor Setar 6.15pm. It was the longest journey balik kampung. Penat beb….smpi driver ni pening2 hingga bawa ke malamla. My parents mmg susah hati sangat hari tu, sbb anak dara dia tak sampai2 lagi from KL. It took us 10 hours to reach Alor Setar. But it was a great experience too enjoy jugakla journey ni.eventhough penat.

9.00pm
After we had dinner, Syamil ajak pusing2 Alor Setar town. Dia yg nak bawa my friends jalan2 malam tu. I tunjuk Alor Setar Tower, Masjid Zahir, we went to Kuala Kedah then we stop at White Horse Oldtown Coffee House…minum coffee kat situ. Malam CNY pun ramai jugak manusia dok lepak situ..ingatkan depa dok Yam Seng..heemm…too bad. Dlm dok pening2 kepala tu I layan jugakla kerenah my friends. Ziez belanja coffee malam tu. I dah tak larat dah…flat smpi rumah terus balik tido…dgn nak layan pening kepala lagi…issshhh….

18 February 2007 (Ahad)

Padang Besar

Hari ni plan nak pergi Perlis. Uncle suggest pegi Padang Besar for a shopping trip, it is a shopping heaven - FOR AUNTIES...... This town is only a stone throw away from Thailand. The 5 of us including Syamil bersiap then at about 10am kami betolak ke Perlis. We meet k.yanee at Changlun. K.Yanee is my cousin’s wife she route us there,sbb kami tak tahu jalan nak pegi Padang Besar tu. Dia asal orang Kodiang tu yang pandai jalan area2 Perlis tu….sometime dia pun terlepas jugakla ke Hadyai…dia pandai ckp Siam tau. Nasib baikla dia ada. Haaiiihhh…nak buat camner… I ni kedah murtad.

Beemers kami diterus'n ke Padang Besar dgn tujuan mengkayakan peniaga2 disana dan memiskinkan diri ini. The journey is abt 100km++ away from Alor Setar I guess. It was a very long journey (maybe I was feeling damn letih had yg smlm punya letih pun tak recover lagi). Jauhnya Padang Besar...rasa mcm kat hujung dunia! Dah laa along the way tu takde other tourist attraction. Really, Perlis state govt should do something abt it...org2 ni semata2 drive all the way to Padang Besar jek. Buat la other tourist attraction along the way, baru laa rasa berbaloi. Only on certain part tu bolehla nampak pokok tebu…luas jugakla ladangnya.

Wajah kami semakin ceria bila sampai pekan Padang Besar..tercari2 gak padang yg besar itu tp tidak kelihatan..tak kisahlah...plet2 kete Siam mmg bersepah2 la and mengconfirmkan kami ni makin dekat ngan sempadan..ziez, intan & oya sibuk menerima tempahan..panggilan masuk bertali arus..sms yg diterima berjela pnjg..ader yg nak kaler itam..ader mntak putih..ader suka warna belang..ader yg kater suka hati u lah..U suka I pun suka....

Padang Besar was super hot. It's like as if we were in a sauna. The first time I was there about a year plus ago, I've noticed the extra hot temperature in the shopping area. So, this time around I made a point to wear jeans and a t-shirt to avoid drowning in own sweat. Padang besar being the most popular is the stainless steel cooking ware. Shopping experience in Padang Besar was much better than Bukit Kayu Hitam. More choices and better prices. Nasibla k.yanee ada…dialah yg dok bargain barang2 yg we all beli. Harap I to bargain…eemm..minta maafla tak reti. However compared to both places,

Bukit Kayu Hitam

::variety choices of periuk in various brands

::chocolate selections are okay, better in Langkawi

::horrible choices of handbags & shoes

Padang Besar

::Mucho grande selections of branded jeans/shirt/wallets/handbags

::Nice selection of toto (alaaa, mcm comforter tu)

::Very hot!

Rata2 we all puas hati dengan hasil dagangannya..baju, henbeg, kristals, brooch, jersi, ..semuanya dalam genggaman..sedih gakla biler pikir En RM yg terpaksa dikorban'n sbg galang ganti barang dagangan ini..but at least dia selamat di tangan peniaga2 Melayu..sekurang2nya untuk hari ini... We had lunch kat bawah pokok ceri dekat dgn market padang besar. Makan gakler…dahla panas dah tu lapar plak..heemmm….nasib habis.

Finish story kat padang besar, next trip is to Gua Kelam. K.yanee show us the way to gua kelam. Tp dia tak join us, dia terus balik.

Gua Kelam

Kat Gua Kelam. Oya, Ziez & Intan first time masuk.. nak masuk gua pun ramai orang.... kena bayar RM1.00 okla….for gua punya maintenance. Punyerla ramai manusia dok bermandi manda……Gua Kelam is a fantastic place....untuk saper yg tak biasa masuk gua tu…bolehla try dtg sini. Nak jalan masuk dlm gua tu is about 15 minutes on the evalated wooden bridge through the cave there is a beautiful multishape limestone, n special - a stream below the wooden bridge that carved through the cave from the waterfall towards the entrance of the cave there’s another park. he he yang couple2 boring jer coz kawasan dah tak sunyi utk bermesra huhu.. kitorang usha jerla mana yang boleh hahahaha...Lama jugakla kami kat sana, sambil cuci2 mata..jumpa cik nyet, cik beruk, cik makyey..mcm2la kami jumpa. Kawasan tu kering, sbb musim kemarau sekarang ni…byk daun2 gugur dah tak berapa nak hijau…air sungai pun kaler teh susu…and yet ada jugak orang mandi. Sighhh!!!

Ostrich Farm

Kat sini we all stop for 15 minutes aje. Tinggi2 & besar2 Ostrich kat sini. Tak tau pun ada ostrich farm kat sini, sbb kerajaan negeri perlis tak advertise pun. At least we knowla its part of the tourist attractions for Cuti-Cuti Malaysia 2007..haaiiaahhh..so lemaula our Goverment Services ni. So back to the story. Kawasannya memangla luas….ostrich pun byk ekoq gakla. Tp tak nampak plak org yg dok menjaganya….kot2la boleh tunggang ostrich tu. Tapi yg paling tak tahan is…busuk ya rabbi…tengokla gambar2 nih.

Well, that’s about it for today. I dah memang tak larat dah sebenarnya. Nasibla bukan I yg drive. Thanks to Beemers k…you really hensem…baik…jujur…& bertanggungjawab…terima kasih daun keladi bro!!!

19 February 2007 (Isnin)

Hari ni plan nak pegi Pekan Rabu plak. Lepas breakfast bersiap2 then continue our journey. Hari ni I kena drive sbb Syamil nak rehat plak kat rumah. I drive Honda Odessey plak hari ni, its belongs to Izuan. My friends macam tak percaya I drive this car, coz its too big for me. Tp…I suka bawa kereta besar2 ni….PUAS!!! Sampai sana kena borong lagi. Haaiihh…kali ni balik kampong asyik shopping aje. Banyak sangat pesanan penaja dr KL. Kami membeli ikan pekasam, cucuq meneram, kuih karas, minyak rambut, minyak gamat, dodol durian/lemak, belacan, asam jawa..etc…etc…etc….

Next, kawan Oya suggest to try Mee Abu kat Jalan Teluk Wan Jah. Smpi sana we order 3 Mee Abu. Me and Ziez share, coz I ni tak berapa nak makan sgt meet tu, tp bolehla tahan rasanya. Intan & Oya like it. Then we proceed to Muzium Padi kat Gunung Keriang. Masuk sana kena bayar RM3.00. Umat manusia punyala ramai jgn cerite!!…almaklumlah cuti panjangla katakan. Platform berpusing pon diorang tak pusingkan sbb org ramai sgt sampai tak boleh nak tampung berat manusia so tak dpt la rasa peak activity kat muzium padi tu huhuh dahla masuk kena bayar RM3.00 huhu.. tapi kira oklaa...bagus kerajaan kedah!! J Then Intan nak try makan Pasembor plak. Mak Engku suggest makan kat Kedai Alisa dekat dgn Masjid Pantai Johor. Sampai sana, as usual, me & ziez share the portion..heh…heh…he…I ni bab makan memilih sket. Intan & Oya finish their portion. Intan kata tak berapa nak sedap pasembor sini. Well, at least I dah bawa depa pi sana makan pasembor … I’m too tired, then kami balik.

At about 6.00pm we went to Darul Aman Water Park. Kat sana, mcm-mcm xtvt ada, boleh naik kuda, main laying-layang, ada karaoke, naik boat, jogging. My nieces and nephews paling enjoy. Sbb depa semua boleh bebas berlari tak ada halangan. Lepak sampai maghrib..happening gak tempat tu….happening for orang LoqStaqlaaa…..for us for a short term boleh….long term…kenot kot

20 February 2007 (Tuesday)

Sedeynya nak balik KL dah. Cepatnya masa berlalu. Sedey aje muka my parents nak let us go. Kalau boleh nak stay lama lagi kat kampung. We depart at about 9.30am...traffic is not as bad as that day. Flowing smoothly. We stop at Sungai Perak and we had lunch at Tapah. We reach KL at 3.30pm.

Little msg :-)

Dearie friends, brothers, families.......thank a lot for the guidance and hospitality given to us while we were there. Uncle & Auntie...thanks for the accommodation and foods. Service is first class!!! Muaaahhh!!! Love uuu. kat sana kami sentiasa kenyang. For my brothers, thanks again for your kindness entertaining my friends, layan kerenah depa2 nih, they really enjoy it while you guys around...cayalaaa....bro!!! Thanks a bunch!!!!! My sister-in-laws...heemmm....nice & delicious foods...sedapla masakan k.hus, k.hasiah and Ila...peergghhh...sedap hingga menjilat jari. K.Hasiah terima kasih byk2 sbb tolong Oya balut kaki dia...nasibla ada ex-Nurse sorang kat rumah tu. My friends, terima kasih sbb sudi balik kampung ira, sudi tinggal rumah kampung ira, sudi terima family ira. Minta maaf..kalau ada tingkah laku kami yg terguris hati atau apa2 aje. Glad that u guys enjoy it. Sudila kiranya dtg lagi. InsyaAllah kalau umur panjang...apa salahnya kan.

Hadiah Gong Xi Fa Chai!!

My ex-bos CTC came to office on 150207. Sajerla datang office nak melawat kawan-kawan seangkatan and wish Gong Xi Fa Chai to all his ex-staff. He came to my place and asked me how do I come to office everyday? Then I asked him back? Why Mr CTC? He said, I want to give you a box of orangesla. Waahh!!! Limau lagi…penuhla kat dapur rumah I dgn limaus. Neighbour I pun bagi limau sekotak, masuk my ex-bos ni…2 kotaklah. So, I said to him, I can drive tomorrow to office. Then he said, Ooohh..OK2…that’s good, I’ll call you when I’m here. So, see you tomorrow. Heemm…ex-bos I ni baik. Mulut dia aje bising, tp hati dia baik sangat. Dia ni fatherly type. Ramai staff tax kat dept sini ngeri nak jumpa dia, depa mesti nak tanya kat I dulu, how’s is his mood today…heh…heh…heh..heh…jawapan yg selalu kasi is….His mood is ok, u can go in and see him now. Depa jejak aje kaki dlm bilik bos I tu…siapla…mcm perang dunia dibuatnya. Tp all the issues that they discussed semua ada point…bukan cakap kosongla. Almaklumla, professional accountantsla katakan. The next day he came and pass me the oranges..1 box with an Ang-Pau!!! Peeergghhh!! Superb beb. Berapa RM I dpt? Heh….hehe…hehehe…biarlah rahsia…hahahahahahaha. Dapatla mengcover expenses nak balik kampong plus shopping lagi... Gonna miss him.

Back to office after a long holiday…I feel bored. There’s work to do, but I’m doing it slowly…take my own sweet time to do all my works. Finally, I’ve completed all my work. Haaiihhh…well, today my lady bos came in. She suppose not to work today, but there’s an urgent meeting need to go to IRB Jln Duta meet up with the IRB officer to discuss on tax issues of our clients. As usual, once she’s in, she will clear all her things which is still outstanding in her in-tray. Once done, she will call me and pass all the documents for me to distribute to all the respective staff in charge. Then suddenly, she passed me an Ang-Pau!!! I’m touched!! Berapa RM? Heh…heh..heh…biarla rahsia…J Cukupla nak mengcover my personal expenses for 2 weeks. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Dah gaji dpt awal bulan ni, dalam dok sengkek2 ni…ada gakle yg masyuk.

To All My Friends

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not 'going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now Let go.....

TO ALL MY FRIENDS.......My wish for you is a man/women whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

Wedding at Shangri-La

26 January 2007 - Friday

On Friday nite me and my whole family went to my cousin's wedding which was held at Shangri La.. We went in four cars.. my kenari, and my brothers' 2 beemers plus 1 Merc Vito. Apa yg paling tak puas hati when i arrived there, the guard asked me where am I going? Dia tak nampak ke I pakai lawa2…vogue2 ni and yet still asking me where am I going? I tell them that i'm attending a wedding. But they didn't bother to ask the 2 beemers & vito behind me!!!... Mmg frust betul masa tu..really spoil my nite…tp kejap ajela spoilnya tu. Mesti dia bengang. Lantaklaaa...my brother siap nak tulis surat complain but then my dad say, no need, they just do their job. To me.."yeeaaahhh...right..their job apa, memilih kereta"...benci betul. This is not the first time it happen to me, in fact most of formal functions that i attended the guard 'especially' will asked, where am i going. OMG!! Pleasee...eventhough i'm driving a Kenari...doesn't mean we're NO BODY. Siigghhh!! Fact of life.

Nvm, let's get to the main story here...GRAND WEDDING.

A little story of a groom family background – His father was ex-KFC chairman…but I don’t know what is he doing now…but they in a BIG family business. He was born and bred in London... but they did the wedding reception in Malaysia since most of the relatives are here...nak kena kenalla jugak adik-bradik kat Malaysia ni…especially from Alor Setar. Tp bila dah berkumpul ramai-ramai adik bradik ni, mestila kita nak kenal2 ramah2 mesra ye tak? His parents is very nice but his 2 sisters tak pulak nak datang berjumpa salam2 ka…kenal2 ka…maybe sbb ramai sgt kot tak boleh nak layan….OR biasala anak orang kaya…memilih yg betaraf antarabangsa jugak nak bersalam pun…haaiihhh…manusia. We don’t mind actually, what ever it is, kenduri ni kita kena rai sbb dah dijemput.

VVIPs - Sultan Perlis, Sultan Kedah, Raja Muda Kedah, Tengku Temenggung went to the reception... and mencemar duli menepung tawar pengantin. My brothers really admire Tunku's SONGKET. It was 1st class quality..harga? Jgnla tanya...mestila ribu riban. The way Tunku lipat sampin ada style and it only meant for Kedah royal family only. That's what i heardla. Tak tahula betul ke tidak.

Kalau tak salah the wedding planner was Pak Abu. Sebab dia memang terkenal dgn bunga melur…kira macam trademark diala. Masuk aje kat dlm grand ballroom tu memang dah boleh bau bunga melur..wangi sangat...dah tu bunga melur ni meleret2 hingga ke pelamin…issshhh…dah byk2 tu pening plak kepala bau dia kuat sangat. Well, the reception ends almost 12am…ngantuknyaaa…dah tu nak bersalam dgn pengantin punyala panjang.

Sementara nak tunggu turn kami sampai ke pengantin untuk bersalam tu….kami ni beramai2 naik atas pelamin yg direka oleh Pak Abu tu untuk bergambar. Tengokla gambar2 kami nih. Even pengantin lama pun bersanding sekali lagi…heh…heh…heh…mengalah real pengantin yg berposing atas pelamin tu. It was a great nite & a grand wedding. Kalaulah majlis ni masuk dlm majalah Pengantin, harus kami membelinya. Manala tahu mungkin terselit gambar2 kami nih.

Kepada Azhan & Thania, Selamat Pengatin Baru. Semoga berbahagia sehingga ke anak cucu. InsyaAllah…